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Lost Dog
02:59
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Last night I was a lost dog running wild on the road
Looking back over my shoulder for the headlight’s glow
Blood in my mouth, what I killed I don’t know
There was an engine in my chest beating feet upon the road
I outran the darkness and the light just the same
and I cried for the edges when I forgot my own name
You see me now Daddy I am a vapor of a ghost
Out spinning in the blackness where the time doesn’t go
The end is the beginning of a story I don’t know
Out spinning in the blackness where the time it doesn’t go
I met an angel, a boring man by a tree
His fire had been stolen by an eternity
I’ll be dead in a moment, just a breath and I’ll be gone
Love is everything that can’t be held for too long
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Garden
03:02
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Nobody knows me
where I go when I’m angry
Or how often I’m lonely
I guess they’re the same thing
In my mind there’s a garden
Full of beauty and darkness
Full of sorrow and sweet things
Where my heart can be honest
In that garden there’s a fruit tree
And I eat from it daily
The same that Adam and Eve ate
What does that make me?
In my Garden there’s a fruit tree
I want to know the secrets
I want to peek behind the curtain
I want to find out for certain
If I’m here on purpose
As if knowing would save me
From the things that have made me
As if the mess that I’m making
Isn’t really a blessing
As if knowing would save me
In my mind there’s a garden
Full of beauty and darkness
Full of sorrow and sweet things
Where my heart can be honest
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3. |
Quiet Man
03:39
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There's holes in all the sidewalls where the wind it brings the rain in
And the gold crowns have been found out to be brass that has been painted
There's holes in all our bibles where we make secret compartments
To hide the broken treasures we smuggled out of the garden
We gaze at our reflections like insecure children
Poorly dressed and always panicking in the bodies of men and women
And we stumble on like drunkards toward a cliff just because
None of us cares about the end when we're trying to find love
We get moving in the morning and we suffer on until the evening
Where we finally drink the whiskey that soothes our disbelieving
While others find a quiet place and build a fence around it
Spend their time on the money they make and find ways to talk about it
There's an angry man on the mountain just like there's always been
And there's a quiet man in the valley standing taller than him
And there's a child with a secret that she doesn't know she holds
And the fact that I can see it means that I am growing old
Some of us get lucky, find an anchor in the storm
Some of us never learn to see beyond the place we were born
Time is a mystic with a briefcase in his hand
You can pay to look inside it but you can't afford to understand
Maybe heaven is a place that doesn't have an address
And maybe that's okay just like joy or sadness
You can meet God in a cigarette just the same as in a sermon
And the Devil's always listening to those who are deserving
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Red Station Wagon
04:14
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I can still see that red station wagon on the street by your house
We’d walk to rent movies and wander our way across town
Out away from your dad you were always so easily found
You’d let your hands dance and you’d let yourself laugh out loud
Hey I remember
That night on the roof of the school when we were talking at stars
And you said that you might be afraid of who you really are
Your hand touched my hand and retreated in that desperate dark
And I called you a faggot and laughed and lunched you in the arm
I don’t believe it
I can’t believe it now
I can’t believe how I let you down
The church was a boot on your neck since the day you were born
They didn’t like the way that you talk or how you move in the world How you glide like a leaf on the water all gentle and kind
The world wants a man who is hard not hard to define
And you feel like a child that the God of all forgot to name
Like he gave you a heart but He did not give you a place
Did He breathe into you just to tell you that you are to blame?
Did He breathe into you just to tell you that you are to blame?
I don’t believe it
I don’t believe it now
I don’t believe how I let you down
Did He breathe into you just to tell you that you are to blame?
Did He breathe into you just to tell you that you are to blame?
I don’t believe it
I don’t believe it now
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Paper Crown
03:26
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Wake up to the rain in the morning
Wake up from your gold dust dreaming
Stone-heavy in your mind
Everything moves with the wind now
Any day everyone is gonna find out
That you can’t hold the line
It’s okay
Everybody feels the same way
Everybody’s too afraid to say
What they haven’t found
And all the answers of the modern age
They’re like skipping to the last page
Read the story and lost the race
It’s just a paper crown
Get up and go to work in there darkness
Come home and try to hold onto to something
It’s a wheel that goes around
Strike a pose and smile for the people
Take a picture make it look so simple
There’s a fire underground
It’s okay
Everybody feels the same way
Everybody’s too afraid to say
What they haven’t found
And all the answers of the modern age
They’re like skipping to the last page
Read the story and lost the race
It’s just a paper crown
The sun come kissing through my window
I’m at the edges of my dreaming
There’s a golden moment
But I can never keep it
It’s a quiet kind of singing
It is moving without moving
And I am not worried
About where I’m going
It’s okay
Everybody feels the same way
Everybody’s too afraid to say
What they haven’t found
And all the answers of the modern age
They’re like skipping to the last page
Read the story and lost the race
It’s just a paper crown
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There Is A Treasure
03:47
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The city will still be moving in the morning
A million lives all breathing like a tide
Each one a story beyond our comprehending
Each trying to make a life and feel alive
The trees will bloom down along the river
The kids will race the fountains in the light
Someone will cry and pray that it gets better
Someone will stop and try to change a life
The sun will rise like it always does
On the day that I die
The world will spin, the sun will go on burning
Never even knowing I was alive
There’s a treasure we all know but we can’t have it
It’s a place beyond the measure of our minds
It is where we go when we forget we’re living
It is where we go when we forget we die
And all the tools we use to feel important
They are useless as a sailboat in the sky
Where old bones and heartaches are forgotten
It’s a place we don’t have words to describe
The sun will rise like it always does
On the day that I die
The world will spin, the sun will go on burning
Never even knowing I was alive
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All My Love
02:35
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Roll down the window and breathe in the night as it finds us
You fly your hand out and I can see shapes in the shapeless
Talking about how there might be something between us
And Falling asleep on a hill with the city beneath us
The highway unwinds and I say your mind moves like a dancer
And when I’m with you all my questions they feel like the answer
Imagine the sun laying down to kiss on the water
And the whole world stopping to hold the moment right after
All my love
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Daylight
03:44
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Standing alone with a ticket in my hand
I paid all my money to be here
That’s why it’s taken me so damn long
To ask for the help to leave here
How I imagine never comes to fruition
I’ve got volumes of stories to spin here
And my best dreams are only a sad imitation
Of the mystery that cannot be seen here
All of my nights for a glimpse of the sun
All of my faith in the great unknown
All of my love to be finally shown
Oh daylight won’t you come
I’m a scoundrel at best / all the things that I’ve kept
Are from those who’ve already been here
And the words that I write were first written by them
Still I claim to have something to say here
We each meet the garden as new as the first
Better to eat the fruit than be blind here
And set in the motion we wonder the reason
And trust that there’s something to find here
All of my nights for a glimpse of the sun
All of my faith in the great unknown
All of my love to be finally shown
Oh daylight won’t you come
The heavy weight of the nothing out there
Is enough to bury me down here
This fire in my chest can’t just run out of breath
And leave no trace of love to be found here
Say again the thing that you said back then
About how there’s nothing to fear here
And the wind will blow where the wind will blow
Don’t mind me I’m down on my knees here
All of my nights for a glimpse of the sun
All of my faith is just the things that I’ve done
All of my love to be finally shown
Oh daylight won’t you come
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9. |
I Didn't Know
03:55
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I grew up in a brick house on 15th behind the bakery
Where my dad worked his bones into knots
My mom was a watcher, my mom was a listener
My mom was afraid to leave the house
I used to walk the city, winter in Cincinnati
Make you cry razors from the cold
I hear mom and dad fighting, the busted oven and then they’re laughing And she’s chasing him down the hallway with a towel
I didn’t know that they didn’t know what they were doing
I woke to the sound of sadness and tiptoed out the bedroom
To find dad crying at the window by the phone
In the morning I had not forgotten and the whole house felt different
I hugged my dad and left for school older and alone
Mom said his sister was a drinker and they tried everything to help here But sometimes a story has already been told
And I laid in bed wondering what was already written
And who gets to decide where I go?
I didn’t know that they didn’t know what they were doing
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Sculptor
03:29
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Out across the dying engine are the cities mocking heaven
Plans to fill the decades
plans to keep death hidden
Swing away until the sun goes
Trade your soul for a photo
And stories that we all know
Are empty in the end
But you wrote a letter like a sculpture
And I cried and let the day go
I miss your breath on my shoulder
I miss your breath on my shoulder
Driving north through California
The sun is on the sea
I know exactly who I am
It’s not who I want to be
The space between goes on forever
A blessing and a curse
A dreamer and a liar
The devil in the church
But you wrote a letter like a sculpture
And I cried and let the day go
I miss your breath on my shoulder
I miss your breath on my shoulder
Silver-tongued, the blood in my veins
A salesman with a dark flame
Nothing matters in the end child
You’re only here for a short while
And sadness is a blanket
A comfort in the chains
I wear when I am hopeless
And too afraid to change
But you wrote a letter like a sculpture
And I cried and let the day go
I miss your breath on my shoulder
I miss your breath on my shoulder
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11. |
Walking
03:39
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The violent sounds of busy streets
People living at all cost
Die away eventually
If you stay up late enough
Stoplights play for no one
The dogs are gone to dream
When I go out walking
The rain has come and gone again
The air is close and soft
My mind has spun a dreamer’s web
I hear a far off song
Shadows have kind faces
They are waltzing with the trees
When I go out walking
You sang alone in a nowhere town
We played for tips and beer
I watched you close your eyes and go
Somewhere far away from there
Take me with you dreamer
I can hear you sing
When I go out walking
My mom laughs like something breaks
It’s not often but it’s real
My dad gave it all away
Because he knows the deal
That he’ll be gone with nothing
The same way that he came
So I go out walking
Ya we’ll be gone with nothing
The same way that we came
So I go out walking
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